still into you

Thought that i have been stop liking you since i unfollowed you from any social networks which obviously you, not even one try to follow me back. I dont really care if this happen with other people, but hey im crushing on you. You should give me some feedback lah . bukan kah patutnya? kahkah

I think it was about for 3 months that when nights come and you are not in my mind, not stalking you anymore, and im okay with that. I thought. But..i think it was because i have been actively hiking and some guys have been entering in and out of my mind constantly and i thought naaah,

But in just one moment, you appeared back on my mind , and now i have been actively stalking you back like a retarded fat dugong who have a dream to marry a prince. Of course, you are not like the prince. You are just a jerk that have good face (im not quite sure with this), nice talent, and some ruined attitudes and mental disability and bajet bagus and whatevah.

And during this Ramadhan, i happened to be having a practical course in Shah Alam, which is quite okay for me up until now. But the other days, didah came and requested to solat Terawih at Masjid UiTM Shah Alam, and then i remembered this one crucial extraordinary moment happen at the masjid during the old days back when i still study at Shah Alam. 

Back then when i was so crazy about him, that even in my prayer i asked Allah to give me a hint, if he is the one for me, he should be up in front of me during this prayer. That time we were asked to berjemaah together with boys at the front, and girls at the back.  

IT REALLLLLLLLLLLY HAPPENED. After we finished our prayer, right after that i was just looking at the front crowd and he was there, sat in front of me wearing baju melayu in green color. And that moment, i was seriously shocked. I mean, who would not be shocked right? Its like Allah have gave me a hint that he is the one for me, and i liked him so much back then. and of course he was not and still not likes me but woooo. That was big vent for me. Although only me and Allah knows. 

But i dont know, up untill now, he still doesnt know me ( he might just basically know me, and i appear to be a girl who seems familiar to him la kot, haha). And i have feelings too, to be loved so i thought what really happened back then was just a gift from Allah bagi mengubati hatiku yang lara dan lama sangat syok sendiri.

Since i have been making and know a lot of guys friends, many guys come into my mind and i thought yeah why not try to like some other guys than him. And it was just okay for me to adjust and like other guys. Try to give my own self the opportunity. But it doesnt seems right. The feels.

But for now, lets just follow the flows.

Because feelings changed. and they do changed.