my baby sister is finally married haha

She was married october last year (age 23, bercinta 15 tahun hahaha), and im updating this on april that is 7 months later, almost half a year, and she is now five months pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA i am so sorry i am veryyyyyyyy late, but Alhamdulillah my best friend of life is now married to her soulmate sinze zaman sekolah. Tengokla, kecik kecik dah menggatal , nasib baik kahwin hahahahahahahah

Jokes aside, i am glad that you found the one right for you. He seems nice, and memang nice pun selalu main dengan anak anak ku jadi sissss aprroveeee hundreds percent! Hahahaha syukur all the guys in our family very helpful bila minta tolong or bila volunteer sendiri.

Also this sisterly in my self felt very sorry sebab tak tolong banyak in terms of kewangan (money do makes you happy haha) jadi sis tolong sikit sikit je la bab bab lain yang perlukan tenaga. If i have more money later i belanja you Kyochon okay? and belanja your kids banyakkkk baju baju cantik hehe to make up for not be able to give you anything masa wedding. Ehh tapi i sponsor you punya honeymoon kannn (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA NAK JUGEKKK MENTION)

I cant wait for your baby to out, sebab i missed baby so much, gonna cium and gomol the baby of yours and love her/him dearly. And yeaaaaasss gonna have one more baby before Asfia’s baby, my brother’s wife also will deliver her baby in May. TAK SABARRRR!! Semoga di musim virus covid ni, dipermudahkan segala urusan pelbagai orang. We may seems okay, but out there, were lot of people more struggling than us, jadi always be grateful 😭😭😭

Happy marriage babyy ku asfia sofwa! Thankyou for always helping me as an aunt to my kids, helping me do house chores, and gossip, shares foods and everything la! Please dont move out, hahahahaha ada hikmah our mom’s house is big so that we all dont have to be apart, and my mother also tak bagi pindah keluar.. I dreamt a place of mine, privately tapi for now lets just be grateful and see hikmah among all of these.

Althaf was asleep during all his bae solemnisation and weeding reception so we barely have any proper picture of him, loll the duddeeeee salah timing nak tidur. He missed all the important moments!!

Picturesss? Spamming below! 

masa ni dia dah nak pi photoshoot tapi gigih ambik family photo lagi sebab althaf baru bangun!

althay yang baru  bangun, haha

i still remember during this moment hahahaha, kita orang dua ni kalau bersama mesti jadi crackhead and gila gila pastu orang tengah serius serius kitorang gelak kecil and borak kat atas pelamin tu  pastu kena marah ayah and mama suruh diam hahahaha. Sorry semua, and sorry baeee sebab tak pandai serious! tapi takdalah melampau gelak nganga just in a cute way haha. (my mom very reluctant to sit with her, pastu si dia ni malu nak duduk sorang!!!?? terpaksa la ku teman...)

she gonna get mad at me for uploading this, haha berapa puluh kali nak alter sebab badan makin bahagia di hari perkahwinan hahahahhahahahahahahahhahaha

with her bae yang banyak melayan dia, heeee

my pretty sister, not the best photo tapi sis malas nak perhatikan hahahaahaha padan muka

That is all for today, wow this mco really makes me updating my blog huh, till next time! assalamualaikum!

Happy 3rd year of becoming human Althaf Muhammad

Tudiaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, birthday anak bulan satu, bulan empat baru nak update. Te he he

Hi, Assalamualaikum everyone, since tengah rajin nak bukak laptop ni kita update lah sikit. Wishlist tiba tiba nak kan the latest ipad, tapi masih belum kaya, sebab malas berusaha. Wow, rhythm well haha. Since everyone is aware of the current issue, yes the world has been lock down. Almost every countries sekarang tengah lockdown, having restricted daily life activities because of this bad virus called corona virus/covid 19.

I heard that some conspiracy telling us that this is the method of bio chemical weapon of starting the world war three?? If it is true, wow.... if it is not (or if it true pun)  lets just us all pray that Allah safe us from this musibah, and cepat cepat everything pulih kembali, the economy will be bad, very bad. The world gonna end soon too right, it is the reality of something that we taknak fikir and abaikan.

Tonight also is a Nifsu Syaaban night, since i am on my period, i havent doa properly yet, I prayed that all of us who reads this, especially to my beloved family and friends, will die in Khusnul Khatimah, meninggal dalam keadaan yang baik, boleh mengucap kalimah syahadah, meninggal dalam keadaan diri dirahmati ALLAH *CRIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS BECAUSE IM A BAD GIRL*, and i prayed that both of our kids will be protected and guided through all their life, disayangi, jadi orang yang baik baik, soleh solehah dan berjaya dunia akhirat. I also prayed that me and my spouse will be happy forever ever after, saling sayang menyanyangi, hubungan ami saling melengkapi, dirahmati ALLAH dan semoga cinta kami sentiasa mekar, semoga perhubungan ini mengukuhkan lagi keimanan kami kepada cinta yang terAgung iaitu kepada ALLAH SWT... AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN...

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my handsome boy :)

This year, also same same with last two years, just a small celebration for him, tak mampu lagi buat party ajak ramai ramai and i just feeling so tired of thinking all that. Haha, tunggulah awak besar sikit okay abang? Yang penting every year althaf looked so happy during his birthday, and that is enough.

We took him for his lunch birthday at our choices of restaurant. Mula mula nak celeberate dia dekat restaurant kids friendly tapi during that time tengah hangat kes anak anak kecil dijangkiti Influenza A, jadi memang elakkan dari pergi main main takut dijangkiti since dia tak ambil lagi vaksin for the influenza tu. Jadi pasrahhh je la di hari jadi mu tapi makpak yang makan ikut selera masing masing. Haha but we ordered what he liked too dont worry.

family portrait 

with mummy one, ignore mummy breakout and kelam malas nak buat skincare sebab asyik breakout ish susahla nak cantik haha

papa with yamyam

Good Blue Men restaurant, decent one, foods all delicious :)

After lunch tu, my sister told us to belikan hadiah althaf dekat decathlon. Padahal mak althaf dah pilih siap siap apa yang althaf suka, hahahaha jadi tak pelah, belikan je lah. Gigih pergi Decathlon belikan trampoline gedabak masuk dalam kereta kecil haha. Tapi masa dekat sana pun, althaf spent almost one hour main basikal. Memang bestt decathlon situ sebab ada ruangan untuk main basikal. Nanti mummy murah rezeki mummy belikan basikal pro eh untuk awak. Sekarang ni nak tunggu habiskan group ansuran carseat awak, nak tunggu wishlist peralatan montessori awak yang mahal samgat tu, macam macam benda nak beli 😭😭😭😭 hahaha

looks so happy with the bike :))))))))))))))

look, at the gift behind him, orang lain yang bagi , tapi makpak belikan, siap balutkan sendiri haha

maryam and her legendary boboi boy spender (spender pinjam)

Then after Decathlon, we went straight back home itupun dah maghrib and ada family celebration for Althaf pula. Alhamdulillah malam tu sepupu sepupu dia, Muhammad Ali and Fatimah ada jadi memang happy sangat sangatla dia bermain, melompat lompat habis basah semua peluh.

with his dream cake, beria pilih nak cake apa few days bfore his birthday, nak didi ke boboi boy la, nak itu la, nak inila. Bukan sejenis makan kek punnn hahaha.

seeeeeeeeeeeee, very the happy one. and that is enough for us, witnessing yu very happy on your birthday!

some of the foods, thankyou everyone for sponsoring hahahahaha, we also got pizza and tempoyak. tempoyak is legendary and a must haha

I think that is all for this post, thankyou for everyone around me that helps raising althaf muhammad also. Without you all, i must have gone crazy, not because althaf is a difficult boy, merely just because i am weak person of controlling my own emotions and behaviors.

To my son, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SO SO SO SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE YOU. I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU I COULD DIE FOR YOU AND I LOVE YOU, MUMMY LOVES YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.

ASSALAMUALAIKUM!

Happy 3rd year of us becoming parent!

haha, Hi Assalamualaikum!

Today is our first lovely son birthday, He is now entering the 3 years old era, and alhamdulillah he is healthy, clever and cheeky as always. This is not a post about celebrating him yet, ill do it in another post. I just wanted to say and write a lot of other things that have been playing in my minds.

But! first of all, thankyou kids for tidur dengan awal malam ni, mummy finally got some time to update on this lovely blog of mine. #HAPPYTEARS when other mumsies said they dont have time to blog, just simply believe them. Haha, it was so hard to be on the computer, alone. Kalau betul pun macam nak tulis and simpan memori, ill have to update on my phone dan itu ye, sangat memenatkan to type 9283892 words on mini screen.

One of my concern nowadays is me, myself. I felt that i am a bad mother to my kids. I always thought, "oh because im tired, sebab tu lah selalu marah anak anak" but i dont think so, i just realised. that i am simply just a bad mom. I get so angry easily, i shouted at them when they dont listen to me, i just need a shortcut time so that i dont stressed out my self, so most of the time,nowadays i just shouted/cubit at them so they will listen to me. But of course then, that perangai will just stressed me out MORE. 

AND I KNOW, THAT IS SO SO BAD. And at the very of the day, the thoughts of me, yang jadi mak jahat ni akan consumed my self, and i stressed out, i cried, and the cycle repeats. 

I think that i develop anxiety because of that. I sometimes hate myself, for not becoming good enough for them, for thinking why would they have such mother like me. Why i cant become more patient like other mothers. Why would i made a big fuss over small little things. I am so sad. 

It was different before i get to be a mother. I dont have responsibilities, i dont have to entertains babies/kids, i dont have to get angry all the times, and now why do these sunshines of mine making me more angry when i should be grateful of having them :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

I talk to my husband about this, but is still get sad of every other day. I cried to him, but i know nothing will change if i dont change myself.

Yesterday, i shouted at my son sebab buat perangai masa nak kemas, lagi lagi bila ada papa dia, mengada nya lain macam mintak ampun. So i geram, i got angry at him, i cubit him and i shouted at him, i told him to sleep just because he still tak nap lagi, so i thought sebab tu la dia cranky. And suddenly i cranky to my husband also. Sebab nak keluar tapi anak buat perangai. Tak best sangat. 

Masa my husband settled our car seats nak kena pasang kat kereta, i cried in front of Althaf, i felt so bad sebab marah kat dia tak tentu pasal . Berlinang linang air mata, i said "mummy sorry sangat sangat althaf, mummy cubit althaf, mesti sakit, mummy sorry mummy jerit jerit kat althaf" and then i cried again and my son came to me, slowly wiping my tears off, and said "okay mummy..." 

My heart just breaking into pieces, thinking why would i do that. I should have not have expectations if i told them to do something, they will immediately listen and follow.

It is just nowadays, i just have a lot of things to do at house. Since our bibik aways for her homes for months, i have to take care of things around the house, sometimes i cook and clean up, but most of the times my mom will cooks, and i felt grateful and serba salah also, but i still have to do other house cores, and at the same time entertaining my kids, etc. 

I promised my self, again, just to be patient with them, walaupun nanti on another day, i forgot about my promises, when my tiredness became my halangan to be more patient, but anak anak, mummy promised, mummy will do better another seconds, another hours, and another days okay? Mummy sayangg sangat sangat anak anak mummy. Sayang sangat... :((

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Okay move on to a happy side, Althaf muhammad is finally diapers-free. Alhamdulillah, just month before he is 3, i decided to potty train him. Sebelum ni reluctant nak train dia memikirkan menumpang je kat rumah mama, and takut dia terkucil kat sofa ke, karpet ke tilam ke.

But alhamdulillah, kebocoran dia selama ini hanyalah di lantai. It was an easy journey jugak sebenarnya, since i start late with him, and dia pun mostly faham arahan, and pundi dia tu rasanya dah bersedia lama untuk bebas pampers. 

Malam pun tak pernah lagi dia bocor, kalau dia nak kencing dia akan bangun nangis sikit and kata nak pergi toilet. 

Keluar pun sama, everything is good except that masa tu mummy pergi Terengganu dengan  maryam tak bawak dia, Papa report yang dia terkencing kat pizza hut, padahal papa dah bawak dah pergi tandas tapi dia reluctant nak kencing. Haha

Paling tough for me, was day 1. Nanti I tunjuk kat bawah ni carta potty train dia, hari pertama lah paling banyak boncor , pastu Mummy malam tu marah sangat sangat kat dia sebab dia macam kencing merata nak sakitkan hati mummy. Haha. Tapi memang perasan first few days kalau dia merajuk ke tak puas hati, nanti dia kencing sesaje kat mana mana. Adala dalam 3 kali jugak selain hari first tu.

Thankyou and alhamdulillah baby mummy, sebab selalu sabar dengan mummy. Sebab selalu dengar cakap mummy, selalu jadi abang yang baik untuk adik, anak yang baik untuk mummy papa, Penceria hati mummy papa..

I love you so much, althaf muhammad. Semoga jadi anak, cucu, abang, kawan, masyarakat yang baik, berguna, berjasa, untuk semuaaaaaaa orang di sekeliling althaf ye. Amin ya rabbal alamin..

i love you, with all my heart :(

Stay cation at St Regis KL For My Husband 30th Birthday! #Blogreview

Hi, Assalamualaikum everyone!

Seems like this blog only be updated if  there is someone special birthday haha. Anyway, We had our short stay cation for my husband 30th birthday at 6 stars hotel at Kuala Lumpur. It was amaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing (review cakap 6 so i pun kalau boleh nak letak 7 star biar up sikit hahahahaah) I mean, we are not that rich to sesukahati book any 5/6 star hotels, but we used our budget for Pulau vacation that could be up to 3days 2 night punya budget, takpelah sekali sekala merasa hotel mahal... Sebab my husband is still in probation, dan dia tak boleh cuti lama lama, kalau cuti kena potong gaji ....

Pastu niat ni nak share je tau, satgi ada orang komen “pohpalohh galopp apoo baru pernah merasa ke itu pun nak kecoh kecoh// itu pun nak share??? // ” hahaha sorry sekarang ni keadaan sekeliling judgemental sangat, nak share pun rasa sebersalah takut dicop berlagak etc. Padahal ramai je lagi mampu pergi travel sana sini etc etc kan.

—- sambung

And being 30 is a huge leap right. Suddenly you are three decades already sayang. Haha, I said this too much at him 

"ayang, dah tuanyaaaa, dah 30!!"
"how do you feel being 30?"
"can i die first, i dont want see you go first, tak sanggup"
"i mean, we all gonna die soon, we all die one day.."

Silence moment, teary eyes and then i decided to stop talking drama and i did not want to ruin this happy day of my husband turning 30 haha.

Nothing special actually during the day, we just went to check in, then mandi kolam, after that mandi dekat bath tub tandas, ordered food through grab food, later ordered again for dinner , then jalan jalan dekat dalam hotel je that night. Then we went back room, let kids sleep early that night so that they dont get cranky while being forced woke up for breakfast the next morning. But since we spent time at luxury hotels, every seconds seems worth it right ayang hahahahahahahaha #budakkampungjakunmacamnila

my soulmate, forever, in sha Allah

Why i decided St Regis among the other hotel are because

1) The normal room is hugeeeeeeeeeee macam suite room. Since we have two kids yang memang tengah dalam explore mode and aktif 24hours, priority is to have a big room yang cantik. Boleh je nak duduk hotel lain yang bilik besar, just upgrade je la kan to Suite but it will cost us more, memang dah penat survey, St regis punya paling huge bilik dia, cantik lagi dan tak payah upgrade Suite. It was perfect. Ada big beautiful marble toilet, walk in wardrobe, sofa and table, work space area, and two queen bed, automatic open close curtain, bluetooth speaker which we used to the fullest playing big bang songs and etc haha

not a full view, sebab banyak ambik video lupa nak ambik gambar!

toilet gitu ye, seperti rasa dibasuhkan. very the canggih

Toilet dia cantik sangat, sorry again i forgot to take full picture, banyak ambik video. Plus you can watch at youtube ada orang upload dah memang cantik.

2) Price range. Hotel Luxury yang lain bilik size nya lagi kecil, tapi harga sama. and the designs looks just the same with other hotels. I mean St regis hotel yang baru naik, furniture semua baru baru la, lepas tu toilet full marble and the selection of colors yang buat bilik tu nampak naik and cantik. Im in loveeeeeeee gila masa tengok kat youtube ada orang buat review. So. in. love.

These are the complimentary services they will give it to you

Drinks dia bagi masa check in, sorry kak tak sempat minum sebab memsmerized by the beauty of the hotel or i was just so awkward and blur lagi

Ni huge tv dia pasang dekat bilik and ada greetings from the hotel!

This is the pool, kids and adult pool in one area.

the lobby, 

dalam toilet pun ada tv, memang luxury TT

3) Butler Service, this is awesome service. ada ironing service up to 2pcs per person, complimentary drinks from tea/coffee/chocolate drinks/ pastu nak apa apa you can just call them, atau kalau introvert kind of person yang malu nak cakap through phone, could just send messages through the apps nanti diorang akan delivers it to you. I memang guna apps dia malas nak call call mintak haha. From requesting a bubble bath service through Allah knows how much we request for free drinksssd hahahahahah #GOTTAUSEITTOTHEFULLEST okay takla banyak kali, 3kali je during our stay. hehe

best butler amongst the three butler that went to our room, pandai ambil hati althaf and very peramah.

i loved ice latte, so i can order latte.

4) Complimentary decorations and cake for my husband birthday - that was so niceeee of them, ada deco balloons and flower petals bentuk cake on the bed masa kitorang masuk dalam bilik, later at night dia bagi strawberry cheese cake yang written happy 30th birthday! hehe, in fact semua staff dekat situ bila nampak je my husband, diorang wish haa macam gosip gosip kat kampung tau sekejap je sekampung tahu haha. Sebabnya every butler that went to our room akan cakap happy birtday kat dia, we got three different butlers hari tu yang datang bagi servis, lepas tu masa husband ambik makanan kat grabfood the staff hotel at the lobby wished him too. Tak ke rasa kepoh kan? hahahaha But it was nice and thoughtful of them Thankyou for making my husband happy and shy shy cat. Although other hotels pun memang ada services ni hehe.

sebelum deco tu dihancurkan althaf zzz

For the pools, dont worry they got kids pool tu in one pool. Althaf didnt know that, so while he leisurely walks in the kids pool, dia tetiba terjatuh/terpergi ke adult pool lalu kelemasan sekejap sebab kitorang tak perasan for 5 seconds. Luckily he got life vest dekat badan dia takdala tenggelam ke apa. Hahaha

 tips that i could share if you guys want to book the same hotel/any other hotel

1) too always compared the price within the official website and the third medium site agoda/booking.com. Tak dinafikan kadang kadang memang ada offer agoda bagi murah, surprisingly kalau book direct through the hotel dapat lagi murah. Jadi kena selalu compare. And kalau book through Website dia, kadang kadang ada package rates yang agoda tak dapat bagi. Contohnya, sis dapat early check in, and late check out at 2pm. Usually every hotels check out dia pukul 12 pm kan.

2) Kalau nak book St Regis, boleh pergi website Marriot Bonvoy, jadi membership for free, and dah jadi ahli tu boleh je enjoy terus package rates dia and dapat kumpul points. Ada jugak apps Marriot Bonvoy you can download on your mobile memang terbaikkkkkkkk sebab message butler through this app je, and nak contact dengan hotel nak housekeeping service ke bell boy ke apa semua boleh message and memang laju diorang balas.

3) Marriot bonvoy ni bukan ada St regis je tau, ada jugak hotel hotel luxury yang lain under Marriot Bonvoy contoh macam hotel Le meridien, Ritz Carlton, JW Marriot, Sheraton Imperial and banyakkk lagiii. Dan bukan hotel hotel dekat dalam Malaysia, is a worldwide membership pastu kalau nak pergi overseas boleh la book hotel through this dapat points. Semoga kita semua sesama kaya pemurah boleh pergi travel dan book hotel selalu. hahaha

4) masa nak book dia akan minta account information tau without the 3 digit yang dekat belakang tu. So I thought nanti one day before check in dia akan mintak kita bayar through proper way, rupanya one day before tu dia dah siap deduct sekali dengan deposit rm500. Mula mula cuak jugakk cam wow how can you deduct without i give access to, haha. Dahla sis ada debit visa je, nak dapat balik deposit tu pun memang lambat dalam 7-14days masa bekerja. Sobsss. Haha, tapi i think kalau nak balik deposit on the spot kena letak credit card atauuuuu /cukup kan tinggal kat bank the exact amount yang kena bayar. Biar deposit cash so that masa check out boleh dapat terus balik. 

That is all that i can share, sis pun baru sekali booking, after this bolehla kumpul duit slow slow booking yang lain pulak! haha

The next day we have our breakfast, the breakfast spread was good. Unlike other hotels, they served us what drinks we want, and few extras layanan yang superbs. I loveee the pastry bread there so sedap i cry. And after check out we went to Aquaria KLCC bawak anak anak jalan and tengok Klcc, main dekat taman klcc tu damnnn the permainan ya was so hugeeeee!!! Sis terkedu jap happy jap pastu sedih jap memandangkan nak kena kejar kejar althaf dalam park yang huge tu haha. Tapi bestlaaaa.

omelette ni order je dekat buffet section tu nanti chef tu masak according to our preferences and hantar sendiri dekat meja

soooooooooo good!!!!!!

To my dearest Husband, we love you so much! Thanks for everything you did and bakal buat to us, thankyou for always bearing with my mengada ngada tantrums, and dealing with the kids, helping me as much as you can, thankyou for not being peka so that it shows that you are not perfect, and thus imperfect is a perfection to my eyes apoooooooooooooooooo qila hahahahaha. Please be a good husband and a father to us always, May Allah always protect you and your heart, wahahaha doa overthinking ye. Semoga Allah terus merahmati cinta dan bahagia kekeluargaan kita :( Cinta yang AGUNG hanya pada ALLAH..dan ALLAH jualah yang mengawal perasaan kita ni, sebab tu kena doa banyak banyak yang Allah kasih, dan terima doa doa kita ni.

Adios, assalamualaikum!

ps you can watch my ig tv about our short trip to st regis. sementara masih public account ku sebab nak masuk peraduan hari tu haha