My Love Story

Hi Assalamualaikum!

Buku Diari Hamil mengatakan seorang ibu mengandung akan cepat melupai sesuatu perkara, kerana keadaan ibu yang terus menerus bekerja berlebihan untuk perkembangan bayi sehingga menimbulkan penghalang kepada pemikirannya (-ms 66 salin sejibik hahahahaha). Oleh kerana itu, sebelum ingatan manis ku dimamah usia dan waktu..marilah kita mencoretkan sedikit caritan untuk dibaca anak cucu tentang kisah cinta ...

mummy dan papa.... (masa ni mummy tengah pregnant anak pertama, 3bulan baru..) 

Kami mula mengenali pada hujung 2013 pada satu trip gunung (v1) yang mengambil masa selama 6 hari 5 malam (kalau tak silap lah hahahaha ). Mengenali disini bermaksud hanya mengetahui bahawasanya si dia wujud di muka bumi. Kerana, di trip 6 hari itu hanya ada dua memori sahaja yang terkesan di dalam otak mengimbas wujudnya suami ku itu.

gituuwwww

Memori yang pertama, pada pagi di Puncak Gunung Korbu, pihak urussetia menyediakan sarapan mee ke keaw teaw dan memandangkan sajian itu sedap, tiba tiba sahaja suara siapa entah menunjukkan ke arah tukang masak sarapan itu. My first impression was

"oh...dia... okay...*senyum*" Perasaan itu memang kosong, tapi seakan tenang. Mungkin kerana dia seorang yang luarannya sentiasa tenang dan lumrah alaminya pendiam dan tak banyak cakap (but he talks a lot now, with me ihikihik) (it is a STRUGGLE to make him talks) (after months of training) (hahahaha)

Memori yang kedua, adalah pada penghujung trip dimana banyak penurunan dari pendakian berlaku, semasa sedang mahu sampai di rest point yang dari kejauhan dah dengar suara suara dari orang yang laju2 belaka sedang berehat, ternampak satu beg dibaluti plastik sampah yang diletakkan di tengah rest point tu, dan sesuka hatinya ku meramas beg itu. Rupa rupanya bukan beg yer, tetapi suamiku yang dibaluti plastik sampah hitam itu . (lol, kenapa perkataan ini nampak seperti.....................lain?) (meramas=memegang=membelai lebih kurang lah apepapelah kan hahaha)

-'-

I was so shocked, and he also shocked. We together gether shocked. Tergelak semua yang menyaksikan, apetah lagi yang dalam plastik tu. Hahahaha

Mungkin Allah nak bagi hint kepada yang meramas dan diramas 

"this is your future wife, and this is your future hubby, please make it memorable that you two will be soon married to each other and lived happily ever after"

ececeh. 

And that was it. Sepanjang 6 hari, itu sahaja memori yang terpahat berkaitan dengan suamiku itu. Betapa tak pentingnnya dia didalam kehidupan ku ketika itu. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (now i cannot ever think i can even live without him, i loveyou sayang) (sorry ter cheesyyy pulak) hahahaha.

Dan selepas trip itu tiada apa apa yang berlaku, kecuali mendapat friend request di facebook bernama "Muhammad Rabani" (indahnya namamu sayang... BAHAHAHAHA). and that wassss it also. Kebiasaan lah, lepas trip je facebook mesti ramai kawan kawan yang dari satu trip akan add meng-add kerana apa? Kerana gambar yer gaiss.. hahahahaha. Tagged photos and all that.

Beberapa bulan kemudian, kami berjumpa semula pada Trip CBL.. (berjumpa di gunung sahaja, mampu tak? hahahaha) Masa tu, saya ada seorang kawan perempuan gunung yang saya rapat, yang merupakan kawan juga kepada suamiku itu (kami berjumpa di Gunung juga) hahaha, dia selalu bercerita tentang pelbagai perkara, salah satunya

" Rabani tu siyess baik..dia selau ada...bla..bla... etc etc..lepas tu sambung cerita lain" hahaha. Semestinya kawan saya tu tak bermaksud nak mengenenkan atau apa apa. Tapi disebabkan pujian dia terhadap suamiku itu, membuatkan saya yang agak susah open pada lelaki menjadi rasa senang nak berkawan dan approach him first. 

Buktinya,

Sebelum bas bergerak ke Terengganu, (cbl terletak di situ), suamiku itu merupakan Along "pengutip duit" pada yang belum melangsaikan duit trip. Hahaha. Dan tiba tiba sahaja waktu dia sedang mengira duit yang begitu banyak itu, saya mendekatkan diri kepada dia lalu.........

"nak tolong kira boleh tak"

Dia buat muka terkejut dan selenger sebentar.

"oh haaa boleh boleh.."

lalu duduklah kami berdua di kerusi panjang hentian LRT Gombak, mengira saling berdepanan.. 

BERANINYA AKU!!! APEHAL KAUU TIBA TIBA APPROACH DIA??!! bahahahahahaha.

Faktor utama mungkin sebab, suamiku tu rapat dengan kawan rapat perempuan ku tadi, jadi secara automatiknya, haruslah aku terjebak dan pura pura rapat sekali. Peramah betul tiba tiba seorang Aqila Safuan.. Haruslah, haruslah peramah. Pergi trip yang takde kawan, atau kawan seketul dua, kenalah jadi peramah kalau tak, tak best lah..

malahan approach untuk offer ambik gambar dia???? berani sungguh kau hahahaha 

haaa yang tengah tu lah kawan rapat perempuan sepergunungan saya. Dia baru kahwin minggu lepas and i am so happpyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy for her! See, pura pura rapat jugak ambik gambar bertiga hahahahahahaa

Trip tu sumpah best, sebab banyak jumpa kawan kawan yang best, tempat SubhanAllah cantiknya.... Rinduuu sangat sangat, dan tempat tu la menjadikan kami dari strangers bertukar menjadi kawan biasa.. dan  lama lama menjadi rapat... lalu rapat bertukar... (alahai..tiba tiba hati melting) (HAHAHAHAHAA) (kau kenapa..) Tapi masa tu jadi kawan biasa lah. Berbulan bulan bertukar tahun baru jadi rapat..

Orang bising bising borak sana sini, suami ku tu hanya tumpang gelak, tak gelak senyum. Eh tu je ke awak mampu masa tu? Hahahaha. Lumrah orang pendiam kot. Main tembak2 air pun guna gigi je dia senyum dan gelak. Tapi dia cakaplah dengan orang orang yang dah biasa.. Dengan saya baru lagi kot... Hahahaha. Gaiss.. he do talks okay. Dengan orang yang dia tak biasa ja dia tak cakap. Dia senyum je. Comel kan. Hhahaha.

Lepas dari trip tu, banyak jugak trip yang kalau dia pergi, saya pergi. Kalau saya pergi , dia ada. Dimana ada ku, disitu ada kauuuuuuuuuuu.. HAHAHAHAHA. Tapi jujur, bila berkawan dengan dia, tak pernah ada rasa dia ni..

Macam mana yer nak expresskan in words..

Comfortable 100% dengan dia, walaupun dia tak banyak sangat cakap, tapi kita senang nak bercerita dengan dia, senang berkawan dengan dia, He is a great helper. Kalau ada benda yang dia boleh tolong, semestinya dia tolong. Tanpa berkira. Tak pernah rasa dia menggatal atau nak mengayat, he is not that kind of guy. Mulut tak manis langsung. (masa bercinta , dan lepas kahwin lainla) (HAHAHAAHAHA) tapi sebelum kami heart to heart. Memang tak langsung dia bermanis manisan.. Hanya dari perbuatan je boleh agak dia "eh dia ni suka kat aku kot" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAA. Amboi panjang gelak qila? 

Dan perangai perangai dia ni semua orang setuju rasanya. Baik kawan lelaki, baik perempuan, memang dia berpelakuan sebegitu. Sentiasa menyenangkan orang. Sentiasa Disenangi. I knowla,,i observe bila dia dengan kawan kawan. hahaha. Dan orang seperti ini, merupakan kebaikan Allah nak beri pada kita.. Thankyou Allah.. Segala puji pujian, nikmat, kebahagiaan hanya buat -Mu.

Masa ni dia baru sampai dari Kedah, sanggup datang Konvo kita walaupun semalaman dalam bas,  bawak bunga lagi....tapi dia mandi ke tak eh?? hahahaahaha

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Penghujung March 2015,

dari Nov 2013-2014-2015, bulan March baru kami heart to heart, dan confessed we loved each other and start a new relationship for us. Hahahaha. 

Padahal sebelum tu, dah bagitahu dia dah i have a crush yang berlangsung selama bertahun tahun itu (kau ingat cinta kau cukup sejati lah kau setia suka laki ni bertahun tahun?) (hahahaha) tapi dia respon 

"oh...ye ker.." pastu bagi nasihat sikit.. Takde pulak dia suruh berhenti berharap ke apa. That is how kind he is. Dan sejenis pasrah/lantak kaulah. Lelaki tu pun tah tau awak wujud ke tak. Itu yang dia kata dulu. Jadi sebab tulah dia tak kesah pun pasal bekas crush ku itu. Wah. berkeyakinan. Dan dia terus menjadi diri dia, membuatkan ku jatuh cinta...hari demi hari..... (k k k stop..) (bukan novel cinta) hahaha.

Dahla masa first time confessed tu, terus cakap tentang Alam perkahwinan (HAHAHA, tak penyabor penyabor ..) Maksudnya, perhubungan yang akan dijalinkan ini bukanlah main main. Lagipun, kami berdua masa tu belum ada kerja yang kukuh atau apa apa yang menyebabkan kami boleh berkahwin. Cuma niat tu dah ada.. Selalu kalau keluar berdua.. selalu cakap tentang kahwin. Dua dua tak sedap bercinta tanpa ada perhubungan yang halal. Tapi nak kahwin, tapi tak mampooo. Hahahaha

Bulan 6 2015 ke, masa tu Puasa pertama, dia ada interview (masa tu takde kerja tetap lagi, job ada pun job naik gunung dan kerja di kedai air) Dan alhamdulillah dia dapat kerja tu.. Masa tu lah baru boleh bernafas sikit, barulah boleh fikir nak kumpul duit kahwin ke, hantaran apa semua lagi. Kesiannya suamiku. hahaha. Tapi waktu tu tak decide lagi tarikh tunang ke kahwin ke. Kami berkeyakinan je kami akan kahwin. Masa keluarga dia datang , dengan niat nak berbual bual antara dua keluarga, lebih mengenali antara satu sama lain itulah.. tiba tiba terjadi Rombongan Merisik. Cincin takdelah (ohgosh adat...toksahlah komeee) Mama, saya yang slamber tu tiba tiba je tanya bila nak satukan depa ni. Tiba tiba terkeluar dan satu keputusan tegas

1) tarikh bertunang (bulan 27/12)

2) tarikh kahwin (26/3)

Gugup tak gugup mak ayah suami ku, bertemu dengan 'kasi redah sajaaaa' mamaku. Hahahaha, Jadi dari situlah titik. Okay tak boleh dah keluar selalu, fokus nak kumpul duit yada yadaaa.. Tapi tak jugak. Tak jumpa nati mandi tak basah, makan tak kenyang (sekarang pun TT). HAHAHAHAHA. Sudahla masa tu, mama cadangkan kahwin bulan 1 terus je. Oh mamaku!! Hahahahaha. Tapi disebabkan atas rasional rasional yang berlaku, ayah mertuaku mengatakan kahwin bulan 3 je la... Alhamdulillah. Itu pun dah cukup awal dah. 

 masa ni baru lepas membuang, tiba tiba dah kena panggil.. nervousnya...Allah je tahu

 my forever friends...thankyou kesayangan.. they helped a lot, and give me tips a lot also hahahahahaha

mother....

Bila kitorang dah tegas nak jugak kahwin, selepas 5, 6 bulan macam tu dia dinaikkan pangkat. Lihatlah betapa Agung dan benarnya ayat Allah.. Kalau kita betulkan niat, nak kahwin...murah je rezeki Allah bagi.. Mama pun kata kat suami, hantaran berapa berapa je dia mampu bagi.. Alhamdulillah, semua Allah mudahkan....

broccolis...rinduuuuu TT thanyou surprisedkan diri ini yang tak seberapa.. terasa bahagia princess princess gitu. hahaha

 testing baju one week before kahwin... haha..

 with my parents...

Dan Alhamdulillah, we are now married!!

Dan sesungguhnya, saat ni masih lagi rasa tak percaya dah kahwin dengan lelaki sebaik dia.. Hari hari doa kat ALLAH, limpahkan kebahagiaan ni sampai bila bila.. bimbing kami menuju ke jalan dan Redha Allah. Rasa bahagia sangat setiap hari sebab dapat lelaki yang baik macam hubby.. Rasa bersyukur..semua rasa adalah. Baik macam mana, bak kata kak nurulism dalam blog dia, baik suami tu biar kita je lah tahu. hahaha..

Penatnya. okaylah itu sahaja.. Mungkin lain kali boleh kasi up satu entry "my wedding day". 

ADIOS!!

how myhusband stops me from talking

Assalamualaikum!

I always 24hours chatting and talking if my husband is around. Him, despite being my super handsome husband (hubby...jom baskinrobbins?hehe) is also my forever truly soulmate, real bestfriend, my tukang siram muntah, my punch bag when i get irritated at night if i cannot sleep, my tukang urut and many many laaaaa (thankyou Allah for this gift....) always has to bear with all my chattiness.


" do you think i would become a good mom?"
"yes..only if you do is not always sleep"
"k....."

"hubby, can you buy me scanner.. i want to see the baby la.. we do not need to always go to the clinic if we wanna see the baby, plus we can use it for generations!" i was so excited when i said that
" heyy! pening la baby tu nanti..asyik kena scan je"
"but..but.. i wanna see the baby..."
"no...la..nati dh lahir tengokla puas2"
".................."

"hubby jomla... kita tinggal luar negara.."
"okay...nak pegi mana?" ish this guy mengundang harapan betul dgn okay dia..
"emmm switzerland??"
"kenapa switzerland?"
"sebab...cantik and sejuk!!"
"pegi kundasang je la... cantik dan sejuk jugak"
".............................................................."

This morning, he bought me nasi lemak before he went off to work. Because of our room is always filled with super great semut with brilliant nose (they have noseeeeeee?) whenever we put food down on the table, without even 1 minute semut dah maiiiiiiii. So stressful, seriously you all.. get a life somewhere else. HAHA. He left thenasi lemak without theplastic bag.

About 10.30 am he called me, who was still sleeping beautifully (luls) ...
"sayang..dah makan nasi lemak?"
"emm belum.."
"makanla dulu...orang lupa letk plastic nati semut masuk dlm nasi lemak tu...nati dah habis makan tidur la balik"(HE IS SO SUPPORTIVE RIGHTTT I MEANN MAAAANNNNNN DAH KAHWIN BANGUN LAMBAT APE LAGINYA?? HAHAHAHA)
"em... nati gemuk...lepas makan tidur gemukla...'

you want to know what he answered?

"dah tu jangan la tidur. bangun! bangun!" dengan suara tegas.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


cheeky husband. These conversations are all that I remembered as it happened  either 2 days ago and last night but seriously...he has the ability to left me speechless and rolled eyes at him..

nevertheless

i love you Rabani!

Nasi Impit dan Kuah Kacang

Assalamualaikum!

Seperti yang dikatakan di entry yang lepas... bahawa sanya saya akan mengalami depresi yang besar kerana tidak dapat beraya bersama keluarga pada tahun ini..benar benar terjadi..

OK. taklah depressed mana. Tapi, disebabkan hormon hormon pregnancy ini membuatkan hati seorang wanita ini mudah benar terluka dan tersentuh dan sememangnya saya dilahirkan untuk terlebih drama dari manusia yang lain.

(may i write in broken english? thank you. hahahaha)

So we went back to Kedah, one day before raya. The journey was so smooooooooooth than the journey back to my kampung Melaka. Because of what? Because i was able to sleep and snore and eeaaattt and annoyed my husband who was fasting and him, being patient with all the needs that i want

Nak bubur mcd laa  (unfortunately mcd takde dekat rnr highway kecuali rnr highway Genting Sempah, and we ended having a little fight

"tadi sebelum highway bukan ada mc d ke ? *muka nangis*

"ye la.. tapi semua mcd belah sana.. macam mana, sayang cakap lambat nak mcd..tiba2 dah highway"

"takkanla takde mcd lagi huaaaa nak bubur...lapaaar .."

"lain taknak?"

"taknak. nk bubur jugak"

yeah. i know. i hate myself too.

My husband weakest point is : bila isteri dia lapar. This sweet guy just cannot stands when im hungry

But because i insisted that i want bubur MCD!! I only be able to eat it after we arrived at Kedah, and after he dropped by at Aman Sentral Mall just to buy bubur for me. and that was 6 hours laterrr k. At 6 pm. I am freaking pregnant. Might be just fasting hahahahaha.. (padahal dah melantak jagung, milo 2 kotak letak ais , and many more )

So the drama starts from the 1st day of raya.

My in law family is a veryyyyyyyyyyyyy veryyy kind hearted family, they treat me so good that i do not feel like an outsider or stranger. Everyone was smile ear to ear with me and it feels so good like usual. It was the 3rd time i stayed at Kedah, and despite their humble hospitality and i was still feeling very shy when it comes to EAT.

THE depressing moments was:

1) There is no nasi impit on pagi raya. There is no kuah kacang. But there was Rendang cooked by mil, and my husband lovess it so much that i determined to learn how to cook Rendang. (butthatdeterminationvanishedrightaway) (hahahahaha) (itwashismothercook) (sonevermind) (everyonelovestheirownmothercookright). I ve been spending my Raya with nasi impit and kuah kacang and lemang and rendang. I mean, every single day of the first Raya as for the 23 FREAKING YEARS, that was what i usually eat on the first pagi Raya.

But on the 24th of my pagi raya, My lovely mil prepared keaw teaw goreng and rendang, and ketupat palas that she prepared last night. I was so taken aback by the fact that there is no usual food that I always eat, nevertheless i eat the keaw teaw like there is no tomorrow. SO hungry. (pregnancymakesyouhungryallthetime) (ESPECIALLY IN THE MORNING) It was SERIOUSLY OKAY AND I CAN ADAPT TO IT....SERIOUSLY SERIOUS.. i mean i know how to adapt with the situation. So it was like nevermind la.. balik kampung nanti boleh makan.

Later after solat Raya, and snapped some Family photos.. my husband family and I went to visit the saudara mara punya rumah from Kedah side sampaila to Perlis Side. We went to 6 houses but there is no freaking nasi Impit and kuah kacang. hahahahaaha. I was still okay with it. You know my face when expecting to every houses.

"UH oh.. ketupat pulut lagi.."

"uh oh.. why did they serve nasi ayam..nasi hujan panas..mihun sup....where is the nasi impit? kuah kacang? helloo? are you there?? at the back of the kitchenn??"

But still i was okay with it. Malahan melantak lagi. HAHAHAHAAHA what do i deserve to eat all those kind of foodsssssss. Look at my "days to ganti puasa" it is gonna be so depressing to ganti hahahahahahaha. I can imagining my husband revenge, eating yummy food in front of me.... Err.. no la.. he is matured. He wont do that, dont you hubby? *wink*

But it was NO OKAY for me when the 2nd day of Raya came. My in law family has Open house on this day, and because i was too tired i woke up at 10 and lend my hands right away after i wash my face. Because it was a very busy day for the family, my husband and the family didnt have the time to ask me "qila makanla dulu..." TT TT TT , you know..morning is always the crucial time for me to eat.. My husband did shows me nugget on his hand ready to enter into his mouth but at the same time asked me " nak nugget?" and that was before i washed my face K. Ofcourse girl like me, have to take care of kebersihan. Luls, and I weakly said " no la..."

Later when i was doing some masak2 cores like carit ayam, my husband shoved one nugget to my mouth and he doesn't know how GLAAAAD i am to eat it. It was like "DO IT AGAIN HUBBY, SHOVED MY FREAKING MOUTH WITH NUGGET 100 TIMES I AM VERY HUNGRY BUT WHY DONT YOU SUAP ME THAT LONELY NASI GORENG TOO"

You see, 1 nugget entered my mouth because my husband gave me. Another 1 nugget entered my mouth after 1279237982times i tried to FIGHT MY SHYNESS TO eat. And that was all i eat until Zuhur. 2 beautiful nuggets. Only twoooooooooooooooooooooooooo..!! I was not be able to merengek to my husband because he went to kedai to buy some stuffs, and knowing him... he would try to search the items that assigned to him no matter what, so it was 2nd day of raya..no shops open rite..and to wait for him to come back home just to tell HOW HUNGRY I WAS, was a disastrous moment for me..

When he finally came back home, it was already almost 1 o clock. I went to the room and told him that i was soooooo hungry, and he being so blur said

"laaa kenapa tak makan?"

".............."

"kenapa tak makan? nak tunggu orang jugak ke baru nak makan"

"....hubby...lapar la...aaaa tak laratnya..lapar sangat.."

"kenapa tak makan.. kan nasi goreng ada tu nugget kan ada.."

this man.

why could not he get it that without him, i am nothing?! luls (apa kaitannya)

i mean, i still not used to the family, the shyness of me to eat like a family is still farr farr away from my comfort ability

then to save my energy from his blur ness, i just said that i want to go to mandi, and after i prayed zuhur and asar (jamak) he was still with

"kenapa tak makan... dah tau tak larat.."

"kenapa tak ma..."

"hubby! dahla tu..."

i mean despite asking me why dont I eat can you just take me some nasi goreng ke nuggets ke ape, but he is not. I dont know why.. he was searching for nahaslathis guy as he continued to teased me

"kenapa tak makannnnn.........."

"hubby...hubby ingat kelakar ke??" i sempat menjeling (and that was the first time i felt very angry with him)

right away after i said that, i burst into a very vey very saddening, howling tears and crying. I was feeling so extremely sad.. all the thoughts came to my mind..like..

"i wouldnt have to suffer from this hunger if i am at melaka now.." (so drama.....)

"i want to eat kuah kacng mama..i want to eat rendang mama.." 

"i want to go back now.. i dont want to stay here..anymore.."

"mama...can you hear my telepathy...i wanna go back..."

"nasi impit...............kuah kacang....rendang....."

my husband's baju melayu got basah after he tried to pujuk and hug me to calm me down... but it was not easy maaaan... it was a longg longggg cry... i was sobbing so real with mucus running out my nose, tears streaming down my face, so wet my tudung wet, everything wet.. Even after i stop crying, and my husband took me out of the room, i ran back to the room and cried a river again... how could you play with my emotion hubby.... (after all.. it was just because of food..duhh aqila)

And of of course my pity husband, who has to witness and pasrah with my touching ness, saying hundred times that he was sorry for treating me like that (hahahahaha) and i feel so bad. I always felt so bad every time he said sorry.. I mean he is always be a good husband to me, but this hormonal pregnancy emotions just to purrrr.....

To end my story,

i finally able to eat

nasi daging and mangga with kuah rojak. It tasted so MARVELOUSSSSSS and i was all happy again with my husband... hahahahahahaahaaha...

selamat hari raya Aidilfitri semuaaaa!!! 

baju raya

Hi everyone ( i mean, hi, me, yeah hi myself hahahaha!)

So today, i went to one of the bangi mall to accompany my mom, because she wanted to buy my sister baju raya. Since it would be hard for her to carry my sister with trolley, me being sleepy err day has to fight the laziness inside my body and weakly said "yes, okay mummy" when she asked whether i want to follow or not.

And,this year i would have to beraya as a wife.... meaning,

• i would not be a able to beraya with my family first (it is such a big depression butttttt but but husband first right... so i would have to spend days in Kedah and get reallll with life. You are someone wife aqila. he he
• Since, i am someone wife, my husband now has the honors to buy me baju raya!! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. So it feels so wrong to make my mum buys for me anymore.. I rarely ask her for money now... and i have less 'wish list' rather than the past of my life because merely i dont really have money (surirumah..) and i dont want to burden my husband... (but i burden him with lots of food that i want hahaha)

Continuing the story... as my mother already chose what to buy for my sister, she then asked me what i want for mine. I was like " oh no mummy, its okay..abang bani will buy it for me.. " "taknak..taknak lah. takpe kita taknak. 

As i said all those words with rigid voice my mother just make face like "hemmmmm" and suddenly she pick this one green blouse just to match with the other kain and asked me " yang ni lah nak?" of course i said "NOOOOOOOOO what kind of fashion is that hahahahahaha (atleast buy me something that is me mom. hahaha) Then while she gettin lost with full of baju raya and people (urgh) i said that i want to go to the Watsons for a while (my armpit is running out of rexona) and she just nodded.

Then, after i went back to the shop where she get lost, she was still not done with her business, and me calmly just waited outside and this moment when my mother finally done, and coming to us with one plastic bag and said " mama beli baju raya utk awak " and i was likeeee whatt "mummy whyyy kita taknak lah tak kisah... (more to whyyyy your fashion sense is so different with mine why you bought that without me HAHAHAHAHAHA) 

But seriously, i am married.. and after all... i burden her more than enough already, she pays for everything.. and although she seems to be loaded, but she always struggling to keep us survived. With sooooooooooooo so many bills... kereta rumah air api minyak makanan and she is a single mother and old... I am 24, but ive got nothing to offer her.... *BIG SIGHING* That is why i refused to say yes when she wanted to buy anything for me.. It is my husband responsibility now.. *cries a river* and of ocurse my husband is very responsible husband, Alhamdulillah.. (when he knows that im out with my mom to buy baju raya, he bank in money for me to buy it for me also )(baru gaji semalam) (hahahaha)

Anyway, thankyou mama...

for everything..sorry for being a spoiled brat daughter to you (i am honestly very manja, tskkk)

Ya ALLAH YA RAHMAN...

kasihanilah ibu ku....sebanyak mana dia mengasihi ku..

deep inside, i know Heaven is for you mama..

Kobis

assalamualaikum dear diary! xoxo! hahahaha..
 i have missed so much of updates on my blog but later we catch up okay!
sekarang nak cerita tentang kobis dan husband. (yap! saya dh berhusbanddddd ) hahaha

Dulu dulu sebelum menjadi seorang isteri, selalu lah sebagai kononnya nak jad bakali isteri dia yang pandai masak dan rajin masak (kononnya k) selalu bawa bekal untuk bagi si dia rasa dan makan. Kahkah sweet kannnnnnn. *mata ke atas..

Lalu terjadinyalah kisah ni, semasa itu.. saya masih berkerjaya di Sebuah kedai buku, jadi seperti biasa... saya akan berjumpa dengan si dia ni antara waktu rehat saya atau sesudah habis kerja. Kebetulan masa tu semangat nak masak membara dan kecintaan saya kepada dia membuatkan saya begitu rajin yer nak bawak bekal ke tempat kerja. Menu pada hari itu adalah kobis putih goreng campur kentang and nugget dan ayam instant (ayamas maybe) (wahkaulagi) (semuainstanttinggalgorengje) (masakapekebendahahahaha) . Masa tu tak reti sangat masak tskk end up saya masak kobis ada halia. yer sayur ada halia k. HALIA.. damnnn that taste... hahahahaha..

Masa dah bagi dia rasa tu... nugget dh sejuk, ayam tak masak masih ada darah dan kobis berhalia.dan kentang masih keras . Memikirkan bagaimana berlakonnya dia untuk merasai hidangan dari Hell saya membuatkan saya begitu "damnnnnn taknak ingat boleh tak!!!!" hahahahah..

Dan semenjak kawin ni, saya selalu terperasan yang hubby saya ni kalau ada kobis mesti dia kuis2 ketepi kobis tu atau tak ambil lauk yg berkobis. Then I ask him "tak suka kobis ke"

"tak sangat"
"tak suka sayur yang putih dan keras2"

dan saya pun barulah tersedar... akan kejadian bagi bekal yang mega tak sedap tu dan betapa endure nya dia menghabiskan bekal itu.. Siap puji sedap.. tapi dia bagi kritikan "lain kali tak sayur tak boleh letak halia bla bla bla.."

HAHAHAHAHAHA..

dan he is always the judge of my cook..

sebab tu kalau nak masak untuk dia, pressure nak bagi masakan tu PERFECT sangat susah, memandangkan i am never a good cook. SERIOUSLY.

ada hari kurang garam
ada hari terhangus
ada hari tak cukup rasa..

menjadilah kita seperti master chef di hari hari yang memerlukan saya masak untuk dia..

tapi hubby kalau kita masak tak sedap mana pun mesti dia kata

"okay je"
"sedap laa"

dan diselangi perkataan "tapi jangan, tapi kena bubuh" hahahahahahha


itu sahaja! later i updates lain bye muah!

its been a long long....long time..

Ya Allah ya Rabbi..

Hai blog! I HAVE MISSED YOU SO MUCHHHHHH!!

and now i have lost of words...

where do I start?

Em.

my life updates.

There are so many things going throughout last yeat and this year.. 

Seriously serious. Big things... and to make it short (lol) i will just make it with point version.

• I've went to Umrah..Visited the Makam of Rasullah and Kaabah was the most calming phase in my life. It was so blessful to be there and i am missing Both Madinah and Mecca so badly that i can feel my heart trembling of wanted to go there again.. K. I wanted to share some pictures but the apps wont let me.. Blogger apps are seriously sucks and this is the nicest among the worst that actually allowed me to login.

• I AM ENGAGEDDDDDD ! yeah. Engaged. hahahahahaha but not with the hemmmm. It is with the 😍😍😍😍😍😍. Hahahahaha. I know that this is so awkward because i have been using this blog to express my "so called devoted crush" but ALHAMDULILLAH we ended up with nothing despite my craziness towards him. I found my Real Love remember? And I AM SO GRATEFUL THAT I ACTUALLY FATED TO BE WITH HIM.. only Allah knows how much he completes me in every ways.. He is the kind of rezeki that Allah gives me.. and i am blessed Ya Allah.. may our fate cross till Jannah.. amin.. amin..amin..

• I AM GETTINGGGGGGGG MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....!!!!!!!!!!! on this upcoming March.... dont know whether i could be a good wife but eventually we will be right? after the life of marriage begins? just pray for me and both of us actually...

and.. thats all for now.

Till we meet again!

-the lost blogger hahahahahahahahakbai

sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaang!!

Hari tu.. hari kebiasaan waktu bekerja , bila dah tak ada kerja dekat ofis maka melepakla kita dekat cashier secara berjemaah. Bagus budak budak ni..bagi kerja sekejap je dah setel. Lepas tu memasing mengadu tak ada keje. Tapi taklah memasing, ada yang workaholics tu macam tu la panas punggung bila takde keje. Kalau saya, medium. Bagi kerja saya buat, takda kerja buat je la cara macam takda kerja. LEPAK. bahahahahaha..

So.. nak dijadikan cerita ni..satu petang bergurau gurauan di cashier..saya mengusik la kawan saya yang dok mesej2 dengan sayang dia kat hanfon.. Kawan saya tu bubuh nama girlfriend dia  as 'sayang'.. Kebetulan ada pakcik tengah nak bayar kat cashier dengan anak dara dia. Entah mana datang ringan mulutnya, saya pergi cakap dekat pakcik tu

"pakcik...tengok ni haaa budak budak zaman sekarang, bukan main bercintanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. dok panggil panggil sayang. Belajar pun tak habis, umur dia ni baru sembilan belas ni pakcik..hishh apa la nak jadi.."

Pakcik tu pun sengih sengih sambil hulur duit.. Saya dengan kawan saya tadi dah gelak dgelak dah. Padahal dia umur dah 23 dah.. BAHAHAHHAHA.. Tiba tiba pakcik tu cakap

" takpela...sayang betul la tu..dah letak nama sayang"

Gulp.

Betul cakap pakcik tu..

Sebab saya pun letak my future husband nama kat hanfon as "sayang"

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

talam dua muka tak tuduh orang. heeeeee kbai,

p/s: i love you so much future husband. <3

life goes on..

hai .. 

assalamualaikum dear blog............

LONG TIME NO SEEE HUHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! You must be missing me a lot kan kan kan...

The last entry that i have been blogged is... about me thinking of what life would be after finishing my study and here it goes....

I am currently working at Borders as a MT(i do not want to tell you what is mt is harhar), for 4 months already and now entering the fifth month and to be honest... it is not the work that i would want for my career... unplanned work.. i came to Borders just to ask if there is any vacancy for part timers or full timers and plan to work there until i got my scroll and GRADUATE (will tell you more laterrrr below hewhew) but now.... still stuck in that place.. Oh, i cannot use the word 'stuck' as it will somehow make all of you think that the job is not entertaining..it is.. but... gosh.. shift work hours, and have to works during public holiday and have to wear t-shirt everyday is so MEHH.. but lets just be grateful of how that place has been .. em.. quite... fun.. and more importantly the reason for Allah to let me taste of 'rezeki hasil titik peluh sendiri'...

I have been emailing my resumes to several companies already.. and some (two companies) called me , came to one interview but later rejected the offer because mom thought that the job is not worth it, and second company... i think i failed myself lulzz because i talk nonsense during the phone interview and the company wants immediate person and ....

Anyway.. hey!! I GRADUATED ALHAMDULILLAH!! was so scared about getting the repeat semester..but.. 

here kemek face with her beautiful and ... i dont know. im so speechless of how thankful i am to her...


the funny thing about my graduation day is i am so excited that i have been asking her hundreds time " MAMAAA DID YOU SEE ME ON THE SCREEN GETTING THE SCROLL...MAMAAAAA DID YOU SEE ME ON STAGE MAMA DID YOU SEEE MEE!!!????" seriously no jokes.. that was the question of my life.. haha.. because i wanted to make her feels happy as one of her children.. graduating.. and yeah... thank you for all my family and friends during the day...and for him too.. thank you..

blog... i am now no longer like my so called 'crush' anymore.. i am going to tell you in the next entry and to excite you.. alhamdulillah.. Allah showed me the man of my life.. laterrrrr k later.. hihi

bye!

FINISHED

guess what dear humannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn,

i just finished my degree's life! on the 13th January 2015. ahaks. it means no moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee studyyyy and all that assignments (except you know, if i repeat but lets not just talk about it). Tadika's life, primary's school life, high's school life, foundation's life and now degree's life. I have absolutely succeed in overcome the hardships of learning all those stuffs which are quite adventurous and fun and lovable (i just have to admit it since those moments are the only places that i've got the opportunity to met with my friends and etc) despite of my taksukabelajar mood was always on and rarely took a break. kahkah. but who cares.

i am an adult now..

and despite of all the times that this is the time that i have been waiting for is already passed, i have to enter into the whole new world by means, i have to started thinking like seriously sit down and have that serious face of what should i do after this.

tskkkkk..

and i hate thinking.
i hate to think about the future, i just wanted it to be smooth and to think that there are ways of how to survived and i just need to follow the ways but hey life isn't easy ya know.

and thinking.

but lets not just do some thinking. action bro. but i havent done with thinking yet.

kerja apa nak cari, kerja apa yang sesuai (whichisnone) kerja apa yang best dan tak susah untuk belajar, yang penuh dengan kesukaan, dengan gaji yang tinggi, cuti yang banyak but tssssssskkkkkkkkkkk...

tapi semoga Allah memudahkan segalanya. i hope..and walaupun saya nak jadi suri rumah je, berdoalah supaya rezeki bakal suami saya dipermudahkan, and kalau tak pun berdoalah supaya hidup selepas ini saya akan menjadi kuat untuk mengatasi segala rintangan.


bai

an old grandma lappy

so..i said to mom that my beloved laptop had broken, the malfunction keypad, annoying web browsers that too, screwed up and etc. and she as always, being so generous of not buying me new one (i should get one with my own money later yeah i know) not expecting much from her, gave me this one laptop that she said she bought it at second hand, and even opened it up for me, while tried to connect into our wifi house. it was awkward seriously. not my mom. but the laptop. the laptop seems like it is heavier than any rock that big as 10 balls when you merged it into one. but not just imagining it as ball, but rock okay. and plus, the way my mom trying so hard to use the mouse cursor without mouse ( kekunci or what? the one yg tak payah pakai mouse tu, demm i didnt know the word but let just assume you know it okay? ahaha) and yeah, i was still awkward. like super awkward. i mean.. what kind of era has this laptop been. it must be during the earlier 20s when laptop was just invented. i definitely think so until i confirmed it by myself, after trying to open the laptop by my own self with little hope that it might works well.

and the hope is just crushed into lunatic cringe lullaby as i heard weird cengkerik noise coming from the laptop, after about 3 minutes to come just to the screen play. like who waits for 3 minutes to staart playing the laptop?!??????!!!! even windows 8 doesnt make you wait. oh technology..

but this is not technology...

i just need a new one. i am now thinking where can i get money as soon i finished my final examination cause i want to hike right away, but mom assured me that she will not gives me any more hike money because she has a whole new bigger responsibility which makes me quite sad that she doesnt know how to differentiate spending it between her childrens and the other external party but lets not talk about it, because i have to believe that rezeki Allah itu luas..and i should try giving out my effort to earn it..not depending on my mom, but meaning of earning it hubmyself means that inhave to wait until one more month to hike again. ( working..hemm) 

but whats again?

nvm.

bukan saya tak sayang

tapi saya selalu lupa nak jenguk awaaaaaa . oh my baby blog. lepas dah lapang sikit saya update pasal G7 graduation saya, tentang hati dan perasaan saya, tentang crush tak guna saya, dinner pra graduasi dan lain lain okay. muah banyak ciked my baby blog 😘😘