baju raya

Hi everyone ( i mean, hi, me, yeah hi myself hahahaha!)

So today, i went to one of the bangi mall to accompany my mom, because she wanted to buy my sister baju raya. Since it would be hard for her to carry my sister with trolley, me being sleepy err day has to fight the laziness inside my body and weakly said "yes, okay mummy" when she asked whether i want to follow or not.

And,this year i would have to beraya as a wife.... meaning,

• i would not be a able to beraya with my family first (it is such a big depression butttttt but but husband first right... so i would have to spend days in Kedah and get reallll with life. You are someone wife aqila. he he
• Since, i am someone wife, my husband now has the honors to buy me baju raya!! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. So it feels so wrong to make my mum buys for me anymore.. I rarely ask her for money now... and i have less 'wish list' rather than the past of my life because merely i dont really have money (surirumah..) and i dont want to burden my husband... (but i burden him with lots of food that i want hahaha)

Continuing the story... as my mother already chose what to buy for my sister, she then asked me what i want for mine. I was like " oh no mummy, its okay..abang bani will buy it for me.. " "taknak..taknak lah. takpe kita taknak. 

As i said all those words with rigid voice my mother just make face like "hemmmmm" and suddenly she pick this one green blouse just to match with the other kain and asked me " yang ni lah nak?" of course i said "NOOOOOOOOO what kind of fashion is that hahahahahaha (atleast buy me something that is me mom. hahaha) Then while she gettin lost with full of baju raya and people (urgh) i said that i want to go to the Watsons for a while (my armpit is running out of rexona) and she just nodded.

Then, after i went back to the shop where she get lost, she was still not done with her business, and me calmly just waited outside and this moment when my mother finally done, and coming to us with one plastic bag and said " mama beli baju raya utk awak " and i was likeeee whatt "mummy whyyy kita taknak lah tak kisah... (more to whyyyy your fashion sense is so different with mine why you bought that without me HAHAHAHAHAHA) 

But seriously, i am married.. and after all... i burden her more than enough already, she pays for everything.. and although she seems to be loaded, but she always struggling to keep us survived. With sooooooooooooo so many bills... kereta rumah air api minyak makanan and she is a single mother and old... I am 24, but ive got nothing to offer her.... *BIG SIGHING* That is why i refused to say yes when she wanted to buy anything for me.. It is my husband responsibility now.. *cries a river* and of ocurse my husband is very responsible husband, Alhamdulillah.. (when he knows that im out with my mom to buy baju raya, he bank in money for me to buy it for me also )(baru gaji semalam) (hahahaha)

Anyway, thankyou mama...

for everything..sorry for being a spoiled brat daughter to you (i am honestly very manja, tskkk)

Ya ALLAH YA RAHMAN...

kasihanilah ibu ku....sebanyak mana dia mengasihi ku..

deep inside, i know Heaven is for you mama..